Friday, August 18, 2006
these few weeks im kinda quite stressed.. alot of tests.. on top of tt, we also had art. draw.. draw.. and more drawings. i cant understand why must we draw soooo many times. all frm the same pic somemore. i just feel tt art comes in the form of talent. if u dont have the talent.. then no matter how much effort or time u put in. it would be just useless. it's true. compare txy n me. mine sux. so why shld they put art as one of the subjects in our report bk. i mean. they actually count it fr overall percentage! tt's like.. art just pulls down my marks terribly.. so yucky..
then other than those stupid stuff.. i still had to go down to help my mum these few days. i felt super tired. espacially on wednesday.. i just laid on the bed then i fell asleep. bt i still went down to help when wang woke me up. aanother time was mon or fri i think. i was eatin.. then finish i just fell asleep on the table! i didnt even realise tt! haiz. pity me..
i got bck my maths ta todae. nt too bad. i gt 25. total was 30. kelly gt 28 and a sticker. then mr khoo gave her an expression tt she did veri badly.. so evil.. i wonder wat's ms wan thinking.. so loong still nv return the geog paper.. every lesson watch day aft tmr.. at least tell us when she giving out mah. didnt even mention abt it. then nxt wk gt sci prac. haiz. so stressed. EYE also comin liao. gonna fail.
weekend still hv to do the hist presentation. so stupid. i told txy to tell and ask joann abt doin skit. then she nv tell. make me so malu when i showed her the script.. she went like huh? we're doing skit meh? i felt so bad. nv consult her. bt seriously i dont think we cn find a video on the topic durin such a short time. sat still hv to go ais hse to do ppt. luckily koutoubaogao was already over. or else.. stress on top of stress equals siao.
todae also gt another thing. aft luch cheryl asked us to evacuate the class. so stupid. like of all sec 2 classes. other classes onli hv like 2 or 3 ppl inside then ours gt like 6 to 7! so many also choose this class. haiz. then we went to 2/o fr discussion on hist presentation. they're so weird.. some crazy farewell party or gathering fr seniors. then so lame. i frgt my txbk. so i was like disruptin their super quiet secret discussion and went in to take my bk. cant blame me.. who ask them to rush me like siao.
wateva. anw.. there's definately more fr me to suffer nxt few wks.. yucky. teach me to de-stress!!
( i hate -e-o--! she cheated in maths ta!! )
i was blue-d at 7:40 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
i am feelin so tired and sian. the stupid koutoubaogao.. me and txy doing on chinese music. which was what the previous group just did. onli a week difference.. so the class sure can remember one what. i scared later teacher say: 'zhe4 bu2 shi4 shang4 yi1 zu3 suo3 zhuo4 de4 hua4 ti2 ma0?' omg.. tt would be so malu.. but how? we also cannot tink of other things to do. actually honestly.. i have already thought of this idea the first koutoubaogao early this year.. but i thought that txy never listen to chinese music so it would be unfair to her. tt's why i never suggested it.. but now? so sickening.. at first i felt that we should at least let the previous grp know of our topic. but i told txy to ask fr their permission because i thought that they would definately agree to it. however.. i was shocked at suet far's reply.. she was kinda reluctant. this made me feel even much more sian. i thought she was so easy-going.. she actually told txy tt ours cannot be better than theirs! then? wouldnt it be exactly the same if we never improve and improvise on it? so lame.
but whatever.. we still continued with our topic on chinese music.. although some ppl also said tt it was very alike to theirs. we already changed a lot on it. we added a lot of other things. so it's not exactly like theirs.. i am really so irritated. wat the.. then ben still sleeping like pig now. 3 already leh! .. then i cannot continue on my presentation. still got sooo many hw to do. i hate school life..
i was blue-d at 11:13 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
tt day, national day eve, i was super moody. maybe because i was pms-ing.. i went to sch.. was a little late thus there was no space fr me. rebecca they all were in front. she and kelly were chatting veri happily with valerie. then when they saw me behind.. they didnt even wave to me. they just turned n continued chatting with valerie. i felt tt valerie seemed closer to them than i m. tt shldnt be the case.
nxt we went to the courtyard fr our mass dance. i partnered txy as usual. bt smthin was weird. valerie actually partnered kelly! i was kinda surprised. then rebecca was left alone. (grace had prefect's duty and sherry n joann had band) shldnt rebecca partner kelly? valerie was obviously the odd one out. rebecca was lookin around fr a partner. i wonder why kelly agreed to partner valerie when they didnt like it when valerie gt close to joann last time.. finally rebecca partnered germaine.
aft tt we went to the hall fr our indoor programmes. actually these few days im kinda puzzled. jieqi's exceptionally nice to me. of course im happy as she's super nice and cheers ppl up. bt it's weird. then while walkin up to the hall.. i turned n saw valerie hookin her hands with kelly's behind me n txy. she seemed super close to her. i suddenly started to dislike her. even on mon. rebecca was absent. so durin chinese, she came over n sat at rebecca's place chatting and joking away with grace, kelly, sherry n joann. i felt tt she was like part of them instead of me. i felt so left out..
i really dont noe wat to do. issit just because tt i m sensitive? or issit tt she's really so close to them. im really afraid tt one day.. she might take over my place in yeanyy. when tt happens.. im alone again. please tell me wat to do..
i was blue-d at 7:32 AM
